Celos¿? Yo¿?

"..Mi corazon esta abierto, lo tengo que cerrar,

Me importas tanto, esa es mi debilidad

Mis heridas me recuerdan que el pasado es real

Mi corazon esta abierto..Para poder sentir.."

-"Scars", Papa Roach

 

Demonios!!!
No se que onda conmigo el día de hoy...
Ultimamente he tenido sueños donde Ivan está con otras chicas pero nada comparado con lo del día de hoy..
Endemoniados!!!!!
Ver a Ivan.. Con Dana..
Aunque se que es irreal y que Ivan no la quiere más que sólo como amiga.. Verla con él y que se estaban tomando una foto.. Me hizo revivir mi sueño.. El sueño donde me él me "engaña" con ella..
Me rompí a llorar.. Es tan horrible.. Iván me pregunto que diantres tenía pero, no le dije del todo.. espero haya captado el mensaje oculto de lo que le dije..
Demonios!!!
¿Qué demonios conmigo?Y despues de eso.. Me puse a pensar en que yo no soy nada para él..
Tal y cómo lo hizo con Karla o con las demás.. Que sólo estaba con ellas.. Decía que las amaba y blah blah todo bonito..
Y después.. Llega otra que le llama atención y ¡kaput!.. Fin del capítulo..

Temo que me la vaya a aplicar.. Que llegue alguien mejor que yo y que atraiga a Iván y me deje...

Pero que diablos¿?

Si lo hace... Que diablos!!!¿?¿?

La verdad no, me dolería y mucho.. Que hiciera eso.. Que me hiciera eso..

No se que demonios... Lo celo demasiado..
Liz tiene razón en algo.. Es una forma de demostrar que lo quiero..
Pero demonios!!
Esto ya es el colmo!!!!
Hasta con la maldita mosca lo estaré celando???
ARGH!!!!

Me pregunto que seguira... ¿Lo aislare de tal forma que nadie lo toque o que onda?
He optado por demostrar mis celos de otra forma.. Solo alejandome de la situación.. No debo dejar que eso me arruine y no quiero que Iván y yo nos enojemos por culpa de una estupidez mía..

 Demonios!! Soy una terrible persona...

Trust Company - Downfall

Downfall
Fear in me so deep it gets the best of me,
In the fear I fall, here it comes face to face with me,
Here I stand hold back so no one can see,
I feel these wounds, step down, step down,
step down.

Breaking Down
Can I break away
Push me away, make me fall,
Just to see, another side of me,
Push me away, you can see,
what I see, the other side of me.

Fall back on me, and I’ll be the strength I need,
to save me now, just come face to face with me,
stay in place you'll be the first to see, me heal these wounds,
step down, step down, step down, down

I’m not breaking, down

Can I break away
push me away, make me fall,
just to see another side of me,
push me away you can see,
what I see, the other side of me

Go!

Fall, can I break away
push me away, make me fall,
just to see another side of me,
push me away you can see,
what I see, the other side of me

No one can see anything on the other side of me
I walk, I crawl, loosing everything and waiting for the downfall
No one can see everything on the other side of me
I walk, I crawl losing everything on the downfall.
Downfall, Fall.

The Offspring - Trust In You

I am the one, your help I’ve refused
Your offering hand just set off the fuse
I am the rock that pushes away
I gave up tomorrow to spite today

Too proud to beg
Too stubborn to try
I’d look in your face
And spit in your eye

But I’m willing to find what’s really inside
And show I am strong enough to

Trust in you.
Trust in you.
Trust in you.
Pull me up
Quo modo – shadow to light
Quo modo – shadow to light
Quo modo – pull me up
Pull me up
Cause I am ready

… (waiting…) I am the one who blames only you
The flame in my eyes now blackens my view
I am the one who wanders alone
Darkness inside blocks how you’ve shone

Who tied the other
End of my rope?
I want to move on
I want to have hope

So I’m willing to change
I’m going to try
To show I am strong enough to

Dia Genial!!

"..I never knew I had a dream, Until that dream was you
When I look into your eyes, The sky's a different blue
Cross my heart, I wear no disguise
If I tried, you'd make believe, That you believed my lies

Thank you for loving me, For being my eyes
When I couldn't see, For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe, Thank you for loving me.."

-"Thank You For Loving Me", Bon Jovi

Hoy no me podre quejar de nada, de nuevo...
El dia fue genialmente maravilloso..!!!!
GRACIAS IVAN!!!!
Mmmmmm... Esponjositos bombones redonditos pachoncitos cubiertos de chocolate con cereza... (sabes a que me refiero.. jejeje, muy loco de mi parte.. lo se.. pero es la verdad..!!!)
Diablos, fue tan genial... (Hay que repetirlo pequeño..)
Emociones encontradas.. Algo que no habiamos experimentado desde un rato..
Y con cosas "nuevas", por asi decirlo..
Nunca habia experimentado eso antes.. (bueno si, pero fue algo terrible que no me dejo con "buen sabor de boca")
Esto es diferente, con la persona que amo.. Con la que quiero pasar el resto de mis dias..
Con la persona que AMO!!!

 Eres Genial Pequeño Hermoso..!!!
Tan lindo, maravilloso, genial, amoroso, cariñoso, hermoso, bonito, un amor, tan dulce, tan lindo, Es El CIELO En Persona..!!
EL AMOR..!!!

Te Amo Ivan..!!




Para mi pequeño niño lindo que amo tanto..:

Can't Stop Loving You - Van Halen

Can't stop loving you
HAAh!

There's a time and place for everything, for everyone
We can push with all our might, but nothin's gonna come
Oh no, nothin's gonna change
And if I asked you not to try
Oh could you let it be
I wanna hold you and say
We can't throw this all away
Tell me you won't go, you won't go
Do you have to hear me say

I can't stop lovin' you
And no matter what I say or do
You know my heart is true, oh
I can't stop loving you

You change your friends, your place in life
You can change your mind, we can change the way we say
And do anytime
Oh no, but I think you'll find
That when you look inside your heart
Oh baby, I'll be there, yeah

Hold on
I'm holding on
Baby, just come on, come on, come on
I just wanna hear you say

I can't stop lovin' you
And no matter what you say or do
You know my heart is true, oh
I can't stop lovin' you

Oh, I'm so twisted and tied
And all I remember
Was how hard we tried
Only to surrender

And when it's over
I know how it's gonna be
And true love will never die
No, not fade away

And I can't stop lovin' you
No matter what I say or do
You know my heart is true, oh
I can't stop lovin' you

And I know what I got to do
Hey Ray, what you said is true
I can't stop lovin' you, oh
Oh, I can't stop lovin' you

You And Me - Lifehouse

What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
Nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say
Just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words,
you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't why I can't keep my eyes off of you

Something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you

You and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to prove and
It's you and me and all of the people and
I don't why I can't keep my eyes off of you.

You and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to prove and
It's you and me and all of the people and
I don't why I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive